Saturday, January 24, 2009
i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i felt being stabbed down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i worthless, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, utterly disappointed, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm speechless, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down,i'm down, i'm down, i'm down.
I've never been this way before. I know i'm wrong this time but there's no reason for you to be that harsh on your words. Why do i have to be the person to change and not you.
you don't even have the basic trust on me do you think i suppose to care much!! so many people asked me to stop bothering about this, but i just can't make myself stop thinking. WHY WHY WHY!!!
I don't know what happened. I don't wish to think about it since itis a new year. Maybe something have happened that make us drift apart. I hope its clear that i need a peace. I'm not a perfect friend that you are yearning for i do make mistake. I wish i could just bear everything. I thought being nice being happy being cheerful being nonsense being steady being listening to your sorrows being advisor being easily forgivable being kind being generous being not petty being 24/hr ready being & being ....... is good enough to say why i'm a goodfriend and bring happiness. But i don't think so, I"M VERY VERY VERY WRONG. Eventually, you will still be condemned due to one tiny mistake you made and nobody fucking think how hard you try to be a goodfriend to them.I don't have to waste my energy to get my life this way, it is so tiring but i tried. If thats how you felt did you ever try to know how i felt how i think DID YOU EVER TRY TO ASK EVEN IF I DON"T SAY. did you even bother to concern when i'm fucking down. Why do i always have to be the one listening listening without any grudges. Why am i the one giving and not taking. DID you ever think why do i have to give up my time to listen?? Please think!!! Who is always there when you need help? who is always there when you need advise? who is always there when you are down? who is always 24/hr? who always sacrifice more? WHO WHO WHO? Even how hard i tried to treasure my friends if this is what i get. FORGET ME MY FRIENDS♥ I don't worth anyway i don't think you people need me anyway. Take care. I've got to be strong.
i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, don't bother to say sorry, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down,i don't need it, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm just tired of giving, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, you guys never thought of this feeling, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down, i'm freaking down.
THIS IS MY FIRST AND LAST EMO POST OK!!!!!!!
I never wanted to voice up, but i find it too ridiculous.
Bye my friends♥
I'm going to meet prata(:
♥ MALAYSIA HERE I COME(((:
i'll miss every single one of you♥
1/24/2009 03:09:00 AM
